It’s the end of the month, joining up with Marcia for November 2018 Runfessions.  Runfessions are where we “bear our souls or soles” and share our running confessions of the month.  Doubling up with Running on Happy and Fairytales and Fitness for their Friday linkup too.  It’s been quite some time since I’ve had a good runfession session, so here we go!

I runfess that my speed has been ghosting me lately.  The past three weeks, I’ve struggled to hit paces and have left my workouts disappointed and dissatisfied.  I runfess that I even asked my coach to ease up on the pace group and today’s workout was still a mess.  My confidence is pretty low, which only makes my mental game worse.  If I’m totally being honest, I haven’t felt confident in my speed ability since my injury in July.  Even though I am fully healed, it still feels like I am trying to dig myself out of a hole.

The news I received yesterday made my confidence fall even lower.  Nike released new team time qualifications for the Windrunners, and I runfess I am concerned I will not meet them.  The qualifications are aggressive, and even during my peak PR season  I hit or was close only to a few of them.  I runfess I’m nervous about being kicked off the team.  However, this is an opportunity to rise to the occasion and push myself to be better.  There are time standards for every distance from the 5k to marathon.  After talking it over with my coach, the “easiest” of the races to target is the 5k.  A complete 180 from my 50 mile thoughts this spring!  I’ve never trained for a 5k before so this should be interesting!

I runfess that I only bought stuff for myself during Black Friday and Cyber Monday.  Granted, my family decided on no presents this year, so that helped.  I think part of my running problem has to do with hormones (an eating disorder lingering effect), so I runfess that I bought InsideTracker.  The company analyzes your blood, DNA, diet and lifestyle to give you insights into how to better train and eat in order to reach peak performance.  I’m really looking forward to the recommendations!

I runfess I am SO looking forward to a little mini vacation this weekend.  I’m traveling to Tennessee Friday evening through Sunday for  Katie’s wedding.  Katie introduced me to November Project, helped me fully transition to being vegan, and has been my number one running vacation pal.  Together, we’ve done Berlin, Tokyo, New York, Boston, Chicago… all of our World Majors to date!  I’ve never been to Tennessee before, which makes the trip even more exciting.  This time I WILL make it to the airport with plenty of time to spare so I don’t repeat a Berlin fiasco!  I think disconnecting this weekend and getting out of my normal environment will do me some good.

So tell me…what are your 2018 November runfessions? Have you ever trained for a 5k? Did you splurge with any shopping this weekend? Let’s stay in touch!  Follow me on Instagram or Facebook for more food/fitness related posts.  

Happy running,

Becca